Do you ever feel that way or are you just caught up in the routine or game so much you don't notice or care? That you are so busy that it doesn't even concern you. There's just too much to do, and you need to be productive.
Years ago I used to keep track at how long it took me to put on a tie everyday. Then I would take that time, and add it up. I took all of those minutes totaled and realized I was doing not much to making my life productive, let alone leaving a mark. Sure the productivity aspect is all relative, but leaving a mark? I don't think so.
I am not talking about notoriety, fame, or even fortune. Millions of people die everyday. What happens after that for that person's legacy or the memory of them? It fades away and only the few and far between ever get really remembered. This day and age, recording events and people is far more common. However thoughts and everyday experiences are rarely ever carried on.
When I was a kid, I remember my mom telling us that our father was home from work. We would run to the side door where he was sitting on the steps removing his work shoes. We kissed him hello, and we were happy he was there. But all of that is just a memory that will never be passed along to anyone else. How important was those moments in life? I don't know. They were important to me, and I guess that is all that matters. Yet those moments are going to fade awayinto some miniscule dust over clouded by new memories.
I was with this girl one time, who I was very much in love with. We could never wait until we saw each other. When we did, it was great the moment we would meet up. I remember those things, those embraces. She probably forgot, but for me those were great moments. Where does that go? Just in my head...and when I grow old and more forgetful, then what? If she forgot now, and I'll forget someday...then what was the entire point? Just some exercise in dating? Shoot me.
Nothing lasts forever, except forever and I am not an fan of that concept.